Love Choc Cookies

Hi, there...

I'm back again with not in a good condition of health but still in a good mood of baking. Well, I have been away from kitchen for long, long time ago and I have forgot the feeling of hanging the pan, batter mixer, looking at the oven and play with the flour! Busy of work - it said. *smiling*
So, I was thinking on something sweet and crunchy to eat on this Deepavali Festive. Unfortunately, I am having a fever, even right now, while typing this blog. Anyway, it must happen...and it did happened last night...

It all started from finding the flour and sugar and then...my COOK BOOK! I can't wait to start baking! I looked at the clock - it was 9.15pm. I really want to do it. Let's start with the pictures...

This is part of my stuffs. I love the egg beater because it's colorful. Thus, I enjoyed myself while beating the egg or batter. The blue spatula light up my eyes as the color is sweet and just nice to look at. Hehehe...

I'm using a simple Butter Cookie recipe for my sweet Love Choc. Trust me, it is very simple and you can find the ingredients at any store/supermarket.

Ingredients
200g butter
300g wheat flour
200g icing sugar
1/4 tbsp Vanilla essence

Method
Put all the ingredients in a large bowl and mix it and keep on mix it until it become a dough. *So that it's easy to roll and cut the cookie*


This is the final dough. Remember, keep on mix it and don't give up or don't even say 'TIRED'.
Hehehe... You will feel the satisfaction once you done it.


Taa-dhaaa....!!! I like to use love-shaped cookie cutter because it always look sweet to me. But, actually... The reason I baked this cookies is because of my sweetheart. We had an argument, kinda huge argument. I have tried to discuss but these things are too complicated and the only way to be back as normal is by toleration. I need to tolerate and consider in any matter. So, I made this Love Choc cookies for him. I hope he will like it..*Sigh*
Alright,let's continue...

Once you have cut the dough, take it up slowly and put it in the bake pan. Arrange it nicely and don't get too close because the dough will double-sized. Not really big but I guess this is the result of having butter. Then, it is ready to bake for about 8-10 minutes until it turn golden yellowish and you can feel the smell...

Busy putting the choc layer

Now, when you have baked the cookies, it's time for you to decorate it! Like me, I chose to dip the chocolate and let it stick on the cookies. Yummy! Can't wait to show you next.

The finishing of Love Choc Cookies

Glory of Thoughts: Dark Night

Glory of Thoughts: Dark Night

Dark Night

It is a dark night, it is a dark outside. As I was sitting in this living room, waiting for this tired eyes with a dark night accompany me. Several things played in my mind and keep on approaching this emotion. These has something to do with my life and future. First of all, I'm writing this because I feel this is the right section or medium for me to express everything I felt about every aspects. I would like to apologize to whom ever that might think I'm expressing this or saying this to them.

I'm such a person who loves making jokes. I love to laugh and laugh and keep on laugh. I love to be outspoken but not at all time, I still have the sensitivity aspect. Well, I know I am not a good person, a good girl or a good lover. I'm just being me. I'm just expressing my character even though I know sometimes or most of the time I have hurt others feeling. And, I'm SORRY for that.

But, tonight, I would like to say about someone that I really love the most, someone that I really care about and perhaps someone that I intend to live and die with.

Dear Lover,

I never want to blame you or makes you feel awful. No, I didn't mean to.
I never want to compare you with somebody else. No, I didn't mean to.
I never want to make you feel sad or regret of what have you done. No, I didn't mean to.
I want you to know that I will always loves you and cares for you. Always.

But, don't you know what I expected from you? A LOVE. That's about it. I need LOVE from you because I believe that once the LOVE is developed, you will appreciate me and so do I. I know my working schedule is sometimes over the line, like crazy when I don't have so much time to spend with you. I know I always come back home late and I don't have so much time to text you. I don't have many choices, sweetheart. There are time that I will be so damn busy especially when it is peak time for roadshows and events. But that does not mean I forget about you, that does not mean I cheated on you, that does not mean I played or even flirt with another man. I always remember you, sweetheart.

Therefore, I need you immediately when I know that is the only time I will have. It's not that I push you, makes you stress out with me or acting so annoying. Definitely, no. Yes, I felt disapointed when everytime you failed to fill my needs. Even though with relevant excuses. That does not mean I hate you or put a blame on you.

It is because I miss you. Thinking how much time I have missed to spend with you and not all of our plans achieved. You still owe me a picnic at the lake.

I'm giving you a space now, for you to think it wisely what will happened to you, me, us and our relationship. I'm giving you time so that you could plan or changed. Again, this doesn't mean I hate you. Like I told you before, I could have left you or dumb you if I wanted to. But, that's not what I dreamed about.

I want you to know... You will always be my sweetheart, my lover, my darling...
I Love You ~


Cordially,
A Lover

Glory of Thoughts: A Letter To Chiki

Glory of Thoughts: A Letter To Chiki

A Letter To Chiki

Monday, 3^rd October 2011 was the day. It was a good Monday morning, bright sky with fresh air. Birds were flying freely, like the world is theirs. Children were everywhere, going to school. And, it was the day you changed everything in me. It was the day you turned everything to plain and dark. It was the day when you ran away from home, when we had lost you. You didn’t come back home.

It was Tuesday when I received a call from my mother. She said you didn’t come back since yesterday. I was not at home, I know. I was about to go to work and I left home for five days but you were gone on my first day of outstation. You went out and didn’t come back. I was so nervous when I’ve been told you were not at home. I prayed to God to save your life and showed you way to go home if you’d lost.

I cannot stop myself from thinking about you. All that I am concerned of is you. I know when you left the house, you were not feeling well, sneezing and flu. I remembered the day I brought you to clinic on Sunday, and you had your medication. We were good at that time. I could see how comfort you were at that time. Your appetites were also good. But why you’re not home yet? Why you have to do this to your family, to us? Well, at least think of me!

I told myself to be calm again and again. At first, I believed I could see you again. I believed that you will come back to our sweet home. I believed that you will somehow remembered us and come back. But, you did not. You totally did not. Because it was Wednesday! And you still not at home yet! Where are you, sweetheart? Where are you?

I’ve been waiting and waiting and keep on waiting. Again, I tried to be calm. Again, I told myself to be calm and wait. Until today, I cannot wait anymore. I just can’t. I’m afraid of losing you, sweetheart. I cannot accept the fact and definitely I am not ready yet to accept this. Without realized, tears dropped on my cheeks. I began to cry hardly, thinking of you. All I did was crying until I my eyes feel the pain. I begged to God – “Please return it back you to me.” I missed you.

Thursday, 6^th October 2011 – Late this evening, I found myself thinking about you again. I look at your picture and I cried. I cannot stop crying. Tears were falling like a river. And I began to cry again while looking at your picture. I prayed to God again, like I spoke to Him. “Please return it back to me. I want it to be back again.”

I hate the feeling of lost. The feeling when you’d lost something that you love the most and care of the most, something that it is part of your family. I hate this feeling. Please, sweetheart. Please come back home. If you’re a human, I would have post this on newspapers and magazines. But, you’re only a cat. A cat that I loved the most. A cat that would accompany me while I’m sleeping. A cat that would stay on my bed waiting for me every single night and morning. Please… Come back. I missed you so much.

I will keep on waiting, sweetheart. I hope to see you on my front door, calling me and stay with us. And I will always love you, sweetheart. Always will.

Lot's of Love,

Nadia