Berita Baik

Saya mulakan dengan lafaz Bismillahirrahmanirrahim dan ucapan Syukur Alhamdullilah kepada Allah SWT kerana dengan izin-Nya saya mendapat peluang untuk memulakan perjalanan hidup saya...

Pada hari Isnin yang lalu, saya telah menerima satu panggilan telefon daripada Federal Express Sdn Bhd yang mengatakan saya telah terpilih dalam pencarian Khidmat Pelanggan di pasaran Australia. Saya berasa sangat gembira kerana akhirnya telah diberikan kepercayaan melalui sesi temu duga yang saya hadiri tempoh lalu. Tidak dinafikan bukanlah mudah untuk saya diterima bekerja memandangkan saya adalah lepasan Ijazah yang masih mentah serta tidak memiliki pengalaman selain Internship Program pada semester akhir.

Sesi temu duga tempoh lalu berjalan dengan lancar dan soalan yang dikemukakan oleh pihak penemu duga nyata amat mencabar bagi saya. Setiap soalan memerlukan pemikiran yang tajam dan penyelesaian yang terbaik buat kedua-dua belah pihak tanpa menjatuhkan imej syarikat.

Namun, saya merasakan ini merupaka peluang terbaik saya untuk mendalami ilmu dan selok-belok bekerja terutama sekali apabila berhadapan dengan para pelanggan. Saya juga akui bidang ini tersasar jauh dengan bidang yang saya pelajari iaitu Komunikasi dan Pengajian Media jurusan Perhubungan Awam. Walau bagaimana pun, saya yakin rezeki setiap manusia itu berada dimana-mana sahaja dan anggaplah setiap yang terjadi merupakan cabaran dalam hidup ini.

Saya telah pun berfikir masak-masak dan inilah keputusan saya. Saya harus pergi ke organisasi yang memandang kelulusan Ijazah saya.

The Thing

I couldn't tell you... I... I just can't... I'm hiding away from you because I'm not ready... All this while,I've keep myself shut down mode because I know I can handle it... But, there are some things that I cannot convey through conversation...Writing would be the best, to tell you these things...

1. I don't like when you accused me for something that i didn't do. Asking me that will be fine for me because I can answer you, but when I said "No, I didn't" I really mean it. And you should not said "but, your voice was like you're mad..." That will make it worst. So, please stop asking me again because you will make me feel really angry. This is like what had happened between us now. I became mad at you because you keep asking me! And I cannot hold my anger anymore and my words to you became uncontrolled. You knew how I don't want to react harshly...especially to you...

2. Don't expect me to sent report to you on every single time. I always tell you where do I want to go, what I want to do, whether I am busy or not... So, you should put this on your mind... Stop being like a captain or an army, expecting a full report every day... Yes, I am your lover but I'm not a child... I know I didn't inform you when I'm back at office but it doesn't mean that I purposely put you in trouble. I want to but right after I arrived at office, I complete my prayer. Then,I got some stuffs to settle on. How do you expect me to SMS you while I'm busy finishing something? And by the time you called, I was having and informal discussion with my colleagues. How do you expect me to talk sweetly to you?

3. Stop blaming me. The way you sent your SMS to me was like you put a blame on me because not telling you everything and because I talked to you like I'm mad. How do expect me to read your SMS with a positive reaction? You told me you waited for me until you felt asleep. Was that my fault of making you wait until asleep? Surely, I'm not satisfied with this... You felt sad because I was mad at you. But have you ever think how sad I was when you do this to me? Treat me this way? Should I call you at that time letting you hear my cried? No... I was totally sad because it seems like my fault...everything! The only thing I can do was cried... I cried as much as I can just to release it... But, you never know...

U DON'T CARE

where are you? why didn't you care about me?
you knew what to do...
but don't care...
you act like nothing happen...
are you dumb? are you stupid?
haven't you for a minute understand what a girl want?

i... i don't have any words to move on...
words that won't change my steps ahead...
now it's your time...
your time to win my heart...
or, we will be like this until the time i give up...

Silent Treatment for you

I don't event want to speak with you...
Do you know why?
Have you ever think of why I did this at the first place?
Don't you try to understand me in this time?
Silent treatment...
That's the name of this way...
Why would I treat you like this?
Should I?
Wonder why silent treatment is the best way to do...

Here's the full story...

Part 1: Introduction.
This happened on last Thursday,yesterday I mean...
I was so excited having my fun time with 2 other colleagues (Kak seri & Kak aida). We went to Sunway Pyramid since our boss was not in the office (she's in S'pore). As usual, before I went out, I text him saying I'm away to Sunway with my colleagues. Glad that he understood. And we keep on SMS until I arrived at Sunway.

Part 2: Arriving at Sunway.
Still, I kept SMS him...telling him that I'm arrived. We started our journey exploring that huge building, full with humans being and shops! Then, we went to eat at The Chicken Rice Shop. Well, before entering the restaurant, I text him again, telling him that I am at The Chicken Rice Shop and again, glad that he understood. So, the lunch started and ended up with different story. We ate, laughs, chatting and most of all we enjoyed our time when boss was not in the office. Until, I forgot to text him that I have finished my lunch.

Part 3: Shopping.
We continued our journey to explore more detail. I was excited to buy some 'kebaya' for DiGi's open house on next week. So, we went to Jaya Jusco and went on searching. I found the blue 'kebaya' top which cost me RM39.90. So, I went into the fitting room and got myself a try. This activity went on until we finally finished which was almost 3.15pm.

Part 4: Forgotten.
Then, we went back to office. While I'm in the car, I was busy chatting with Kak Seri. I knew I should text him but for me it was not a big deal that it could ruin the whole day. I still text him even though I will be late. And I know when is the right time to text him. Normally, I will text him before I'm going home. That's the most compulsory thing to do. Inform him when I'm back.

Part 5: The Fight.
But... He didn't think of that way. Right after when I arrived, I went for praying (Zohor & Asar).
Then, when I'm done, my colleagues had a brief discussion and chat with me. And that was the time when he called and I had to answer in serious voice tone. Do you know what did he said?
He thought I was mad at him while I'm not. I'm not mad at him and I am not. But, he insisted telling me the same thing which made me really mad and started to blow up. Now, yes I am mad. But, before anything bad happen, I text him to say SORRY. I volunteered myself to say that word so that he knew I'm not being stubborn but I'm getting fed up. Luckily, I love him and still love him. Or else.... (you know what's next)

And now, I'm shutting my mouth up just because I don't want to involve in these huge feeling of anger. So, I'm being quite. Silent treatment. I'm not OK and will be back once I'm OK. I'm sorry because doing this to you but I think you start it first and you must end up this.

I Love You, Justin Bieber !!!!!!!!!!!

I have no words to apply here...
I am totally in love with Justin Bieber!!!
Boy with cutie face,smart hair done and adorable eyes...
Oh,Bieber...


Bieber...!!!!

Love you, Bieber...!!!

"Kalau tak tengok nanti....."

I bengang gile ngan Manja!!!

Last Tuesday, I was purposely asking him why did he likes to look at me? And just wanna know his reasons of wanting to do that... Dhurrr~

The question goes like this;
"Kenapa manja suke tengok b?"

And he answered back to me;
"Yela,kang kalau I tak tengok b nanti b marah plak"

Oh,whattadfuck man!!!!
I can't believe he will answered to me like that. It was so damn annoying!
If you're reading my blog right now,I would say u damn hell,making me so pissed off.

Put yourself in my place...at least try be in my shoe...
Yeah..I know you were just trying to joke but...i guess ur in the wrong time...

Lucky,I am totally-just-pretty fine now....
Well,if I'm not...ur in the hot soup,man....

The Master of The Game

Hey,there... While sitting on my desk, trying to remember things that should be done, it finally reminds me of my 'azam' on year 2010. Well,I targeted to read at least 6 books in this year which I think I may not achieve that target. Since I've been so busy and trying to adapt with my working situation, it took me quite s long time to spend my time on reading. I only read articles from various sources instead of purchasing novels or other books.

The latest book I have read was The Master of the Game written by Sidney Sheldon.

Master of the Game is a novel by Sidney Sheldon, first published in hardback format in 1982. Spanning six generations in the lives of the fictional MacGregor/Blackwell family, the critically-acclaimed novel debuted at number one on the New York Times Bestseller List. It was later adapted into a 1984 television miniseries. It was a story of four generations families that live with the power of running their business.

The story then moves one hundred years back to the arrival of Jamie MacGregor (1865–1894) in Klipdrift, South Africa in 1883 to seek his fortune. He is soon defrauded by a wealthy Dutch storekeeper, Salomon Van Der Merwe who steals his diamonds, gets him knocked down and leaves him in the desert to die. Jamie is rescued and taken to Capetown by van der Merwe's servant Banda and in his company, Jamie plans his revenge, as does Banda for his younger sister who was killed by Salomon. The two sneak into van der Merwe's heavily guarded diamond mines in the Namib Desert and succeed in stealing a load of diamonds worth a fortune.

Jamie, now rugged and unrecognizable, returns to Klipdrift, cons Salomon into believing him to be a rich businessman and violates his daughter Margaret who gradually falls in love with him. However, when Jamie learns that Margaret is pregnant by him, he refuses to marry her and reveals to Salomon his true identity. The violation of Margaret's chastity becomes the talk of the town and Salomon soon commits suicide, an unhappy man. Jamie, initially, despises Margaret, but when she gives birth to a son, Jamie develops extreme fondness of his son and consents to marrying Margaret for the sake of their young son, Jamie Jr. (1886–1893).

Jamie creates a company called Kruger Brent (named after two guards who were calling each other in the diamond field) and pours all his attention into the business. At one point, after Kruger-Brent takes over the diamond mines, a young American named David Blackwell attempts to rob the mines in exactly the same way as Jamie and Banda did, but is caught by the guards. Jamie, feeling sympathy for Blackwell, gives him a job in the company. Jamie likes his determination and he works his way through the ranks becoming a Kruger-Brent executive.

Kate grows up beautiful, strong-willed and manipulative. Having fallen in love with David Blackwell as a child she is determined to marry him, and thwarts his engagement by buying the company owned by his fiancee's father. After many years of trying Kate becomes pregnant, but when she is seven months pregnant David is killed in a mine accident, causing her to go into premature labor and give birth to a son, Anthony "Tony" Blackwell. Like her father before her Kate pours her life into Kruger Brent, making it a global conglomerate, and she moves to New York. She naturally expects Tony to take over Kruger Brent, but Tony is more interested in becoming an artist. While he clearly has the potential to become a world-famous artist, Kate secretly destroys Tony's career by bribing a notable French critic to give negative comments on Tony's work. Kate manipulates him into marrying Marianne Hoffmann, whose father owns a scientific patent she covets.

Kate takes in her two granddaughters, whom she names Eve and Alexandra, to raise. Eve, having inherited Jamie and Kate's ruthless and cunning, sees Alexandra as an interloper and repeatedly attempts to kill her starting when they are young children, taking advantage of their identical looks. Alexandra is thought to be clumsy and accident-prone as they grow up and Kate clearly favors Eve as the heir apparent to Kruger Brent, but when Eve tries to implicate Alexandra in a sex scandal Kate realizes the truth about Eve and disinherits her, giving her only a small allowance. Enraged, Eve plots revenge against both her sister and grandmother.

The book closes at Kate's ninetieth birthday party with all her relatives present. Robert, now seven, is turning into a talented pianist. Kate sees him as Kruger Brent's heir but Alexandra and Peter laugh her off. Looking around at her family, including Tony, who was released from the institution for the occasion, and a masked Eve, Kate still believes that she acted properly, even though everyone in her family has been negatively affected by her actions.

p?s : buku ni memang best!

Julau-Sibu-Sarawak

Hey,there! i think it's not too late for me to wish SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI MAAF ZAHIR & BATIN to all Muslims and HAPPY MALAYSIAN DAY to all Malaysians out there! Some of you might have a week of Raya holidays,right? Wow,how lucky you are. Having a really golden time with your families and friends.

Well,I gotta work on 5th Raya which was so damn boring and really,really wanna shut down my steps. Work,huh? Yeah...gotta do it...

15th Sept 2010, Wednesday
I went to Sibu,Sarawak for Majlis Pelancaran Kg WiFi di RH Julau dan Majlis Penyerahan Komputer Riba 1Malaysia kepada penduduk di Julau. Hearing the program makes me think this is another fascinating event I ever involved. I could have imagined a nice place with a village style and meeting those Sarawakians,knowing their cultures and the people itself.

My flight was scheduled at 7.30pm from KLIA and I arrived at 9.45pm at Sibu Airport.
On my way from the airport to RH Hotel,the surrounding was totally different from what I thought before. It was dull,bored and quiet place which I don't think I'm in love with that place.
But,yeah...I told myself "I was just arrived. Let's discover it tomorrow"

Given such spirit to know and understand the lifestyle makes me eager to stay there. SO,this was where my journey took a place.......

16th Sept 2010, Thursday
The Journey! I was being told that the road to Julau was very bad in condition. 'Pil Mabuk' I guess that really helped me a lot during my traveling. I had that 1/2 hour before the journey and it works! The journey took 1 hour and 15 minutes and yes!!! The road was like hell!!! OMG! I never thought it would be like this! 4km before I arrived at that village,the road was changed to 'jalan tanah merah' - like a 4 wheel-drive experience! Oh! How difficult for those who lived there to get down and to go to the Pekan Julau. It made me feel how grateful I am of living in my place, even though my family are not from the rich groups. Bersyukur kepada Allah SWT.
However, it was a meaningful experience to me since I never experienced the actual 4 wheel-drive and I really thankful for that.

The rumah panjang was really nice. If I have a big family,then the design of rumah panjang will be suitable for those who want to gather with families all the time. Most od the Ibans are Christians and maybe some of them are Muslims but it's minority. So,they ate food that are not Halal. The rehearsal started at almost 11am and finished at 3pm. Then,we discussed some important matters and went back at 4pm.

17th Sept 2010, Friday
The actual day of the event!!!
Things move as planned. Luckily,it's not raining on that day. Cool~ SUN~
I like to see the performance of Sarawakians. They are absolutely unique and the culture is still there. The most joyful part was when YB Menteri delivered his speech to Rumah Panjang's residents. The speech was fantastic and really gained attention from that residents. The way YBM delivered his speech was very spontaneous and I salute him for that. Congrats!

YB Dato' Joseph Salang was also there,delivering his speech. He spoke in both languages English and Iban to reach his people who has supported him all the way since he became a minister. He was simple and friendly. YB Datin Seri Utama Masnah Rais, on the other hand was a brave women and always supported her husband. She was with us during the event and she was very nice and humble. She joined those Iban's residents and she can managed herself with that situation.

The event ended up at 5.45pm. Then,I continued with the culture program at Rumah Panjang Canggan which was located approximately about 5km down from Rumah Panjang RH Guntul. The cultural performance were beautiful and great! I could see their traditional costumes which was unique for me. The Ibans were happy and enjoyed the show - i can see that. Children were playing,running back & forth,singing,yelling,laughing and screaming to each other. They were all excited with the activities held over there. Finally,we went back to hotel nearly 10.30pm.

And...and...and...had dinner with Chairman! EEwwk! I don't think I enjoyed the dinner! Snobbish!!!!

18th Sept 2010, Saturday
Balik KL, yea!!!!!!!!!
I love KL !!!!!!!!!
I Miss KL !!!!!
KL, I miss you !!!!
Arrived at KLIA at 2.30pm.