Don't know where should I start...
It happened in a blink of an eye... Like you never expect it, like you never imagine it, like you never plan it, like you never want it... Everything seems doesn't fall into the right place... My tears were falling down and crash like a glass... My feeling was pulled away to the sea, deep down to the sea... I am not able to catch it back... I wrote this words to express my feeling and to tell you what had happened...
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Here I am...
Sitting in this dark space...
I am not planned to ruin it...
I am not planned to burn it...
I am not planned to demand...
Nor, I am not planned to stand higher...
I am not planned to be above with the moon...
I want to feel like what normal people do...
I want to be loved as many couples do...
I want the life that I cannot have with another person like you...
I just want it from the only one person I loved...
I want the best from a man that I loved...
Here I am...
Sitting in this dark space...
I remembered the first day we met...
I remembered the first laughed we had...
I remembered the first word we said...
I remembered our first date...
I remembered the first time we stared at each other...
I remembered the first hold that you made...
I remembered the first cuddle that you gave...
I remembered the first kiss that we had...
I remembered it all...
Here I am...
Looking at her reflection in mirror...
I remembered the first argument we had...
I remembered the first tears...
I remembered the first 'sorry' word we said...
I remembered it all...
So here I am again...
Waiting for the test to end...
Here I am, sitting in this room...
Just sit and do nothing...
My mind keeps moving, round and round again...
And I think I want to be alone...
So, please understand if I don't answer the phone...
I promised I will do nothing...
I will just sit and stare at the walls...
Until I can see nothing at all... I sat here... Only to open my eyes of every changes we have made...
I sat here... Only to let these tears falling down...
And it reminds me of the day...
The day she ran away...
The day she sat silently...
The day she isolate herself...
She will find it in her soul...
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Friday, April 20, 2012
Wednesday, April 18, 2012
Some Friends Are Forever
Sometimes in life,
you find a special friend:
someone who changes your life
by being a part of it.
Someone who makes you laugh
until you can't stop;
someone who makes you believe
that there really is
good in the world.
Someone who convinces you
that there is an unlocked door
just waiting for you to open it.
This is forever friendship...
When you're down,
and the world seems dark and empty,
your forever friends lifts you up in spirit
and make that dark and empty world
suddenly seem bright and full.
Your forever friend gets you through
the hard times, the sad times,
and the confused times.
If you turn and walk across,
your forever friend follows.
If you lose your way,
your forever friend holds your hand
and tells you that
everything is going to be okay.
And if you find such a friend,
you will feel happy and complete,
because you need not worry.
You have a forever friend for life,
and forever has no end.
~ Laurieann Kelly ~
Friendship
Hello again!
I've been called up to sit and stay in front of my laptop and throw my opinion about Friendship. This story is based on my experiences, of what I have encountered few years back. Well, if we talk about friendship, it is something that are very precious and respects. It fills with love and care. It supposed not to be spoiled and ruined.
I have never had a long-stayed best friend previously. When I was 14 and 15, I had one Chinese girl who used to be my best friend ever. She would help me in my studies and accompanied me when it comes to social, study, sadness or demotivated. I am impressed with her, I could say. She is brilliant and very good in Maths and English essay. However, she had to move out to other school after PMR and that gave me a big impact as I think I was alone.
Not to say I was alone. I still have friends surrounding me. I met a guy who finally end up as my good friend too. He is not that smart but he is very good in handling human being, regardless girl or boy. He stayed befriend with me until we lost contact after STPM. Thank God, we finally met in Facebook! That's a good thing about FB.
During my STPM, I met a girl whom same class with me. She is smart and very motivated. I like her, the way she carry herself and the way she look at things in different segment. She was my guidance during that time. We shared the same thing together. We shared our interest, our stories and emotions as well. After STPM, she managed to get into public university in Terengganu to further in Economics study. Yes, we had lost contact but we finally met again!
So, my journey continued until I entered UiTM Shah Alam. I met varieties of new people and I'm so excited. We were like families to each other. I had so much fun when I was still in university. I learn a lot of new things. But, I am a bit sad of one thing. I always being left out in my group. Sometimes, I felt like they only need me when they are in need. I am not sure whether if this is just a feeling inside or it is real. Well, they are always together, regardless in any situation. They had fun among themselves and they are happy among themselves too. They invited among themselves and even uploaded pictures too.
In another way, I am busy with my work. Yes, I am dedicated to my work, I cannot simply apply leave or MC because I have my responsibility to think about. I am not sure how to convince them as our work field are very different. They are not in the corporate-busy-world, I could say. But, when it happened, I felt something is not right. So, when I looked back and think, I get the rough idea of all. It might be because of my work profile and my tight schedule. However, for me, they supposed understand my situation, not just ignore me. Unfortunately, they are not like that.
When I was Form 5, I met a group of naughty-students who only like to play in class and less attention paid during teaching period. But, they are very ind and nice. They used me to get their notes easy and done but I used them in transportation and cheat. Hehe! They are a good friend, my good and best ever friend. They were there when I need them. They were there for our fun time. They were they when I need help. Even tough we are quite far to each other, but they managed to work thing good. And, until now, we were still be friends. A good friends, indeed. Sometimes, we had dinner together, we made BBQ session, we had lunch together, we even met up and 'lepak' and seeing each other. One of them has get married, the other two are getting engaged this year (2012). The other one is a busy business man just like me. But, we managed to see each other.
I've been called up to sit and stay in front of my laptop and throw my opinion about Friendship. This story is based on my experiences, of what I have encountered few years back. Well, if we talk about friendship, it is something that are very precious and respects. It fills with love and care. It supposed not to be spoiled and ruined.
I have never had a long-stayed best friend previously. When I was 14 and 15, I had one Chinese girl who used to be my best friend ever. She would help me in my studies and accompanied me when it comes to social, study, sadness or demotivated. I am impressed with her, I could say. She is brilliant and very good in Maths and English essay. However, she had to move out to other school after PMR and that gave me a big impact as I think I was alone.
Not to say I was alone. I still have friends surrounding me. I met a guy who finally end up as my good friend too. He is not that smart but he is very good in handling human being, regardless girl or boy. He stayed befriend with me until we lost contact after STPM. Thank God, we finally met in Facebook! That's a good thing about FB.
During my STPM, I met a girl whom same class with me. She is smart and very motivated. I like her, the way she carry herself and the way she look at things in different segment. She was my guidance during that time. We shared the same thing together. We shared our interest, our stories and emotions as well. After STPM, she managed to get into public university in Terengganu to further in Economics study. Yes, we had lost contact but we finally met again!
So, my journey continued until I entered UiTM Shah Alam. I met varieties of new people and I'm so excited. We were like families to each other. I had so much fun when I was still in university. I learn a lot of new things. But, I am a bit sad of one thing. I always being left out in my group. Sometimes, I felt like they only need me when they are in need. I am not sure whether if this is just a feeling inside or it is real. Well, they are always together, regardless in any situation. They had fun among themselves and they are happy among themselves too. They invited among themselves and even uploaded pictures too.
In another way, I am busy with my work. Yes, I am dedicated to my work, I cannot simply apply leave or MC because I have my responsibility to think about. I am not sure how to convince them as our work field are very different. They are not in the corporate-busy-world, I could say. But, when it happened, I felt something is not right. So, when I looked back and think, I get the rough idea of all. It might be because of my work profile and my tight schedule. However, for me, they supposed understand my situation, not just ignore me. Unfortunately, they are not like that.
When I was Form 5, I met a group of naughty-students who only like to play in class and less attention paid during teaching period. But, they are very ind and nice. They used me to get their notes easy and done but I used them in transportation and cheat. Hehe! They are a good friend, my good and best ever friend. They were there when I need them. They were there for our fun time. They were they when I need help. Even tough we are quite far to each other, but they managed to work thing good. And, until now, we were still be friends. A good friends, indeed. Sometimes, we had dinner together, we made BBQ session, we had lunch together, we even met up and 'lepak' and seeing each other. One of them has get married, the other two are getting engaged this year (2012). The other one is a busy business man just like me. But, we managed to see each other.
True Friends
There are many people
that we meet in our lives
but only a very few
will make a lasting impression
on our minds and hearts
It is these people that we will
think of often
and who will always remain
important to us
as true friends
~ Susan Polis Schutz ~
Tuesday, April 10, 2012
Love
Speaking about love today, I would like to share with you some stories of me. 'Love' can be definite as a feeling of like to each other, loving, respecting and to promise to share their lives in any way- sadness and happiness. Love is very subjective towards other person and it has been the most difficult question for mankind. Love is patient, love is kind. It has no envy, nor it boasts itself and it is never proud. It rejoices over the evil and is the truth seeker. Love protects; preserves and hopes for the positive aspect of life.
In my situation, I am in love with a man that can take a good care of me. He is the butter for my bread, honey for my tea, creamer for my coffee, a pants for my blouse as well. I like him the way he is. Even though he is not perfectly like what I wanted in a man, but he has proved to me that effort is all that we need. We may cannot change our attitude but with efforts, it has been the most beautiful way of showing love. In other way, he is my man.
Confused
Sometimes, we never really found a person we wanted to be our man. Sometimes there are certain attitude in our friend that we might want it to be inserted in our man. I do faced this kind of situation few times before. It's not that you want to change the route but it is a matter of arranging the choices you have in front of you.
Well, let's be honest. I met a guy who used to be a person that I admired. This happened during my study in university and at that point of time, I did not knew my man yet. We were started as friends and it became a feeling of likeness. We used to be very closed and almost stepped in into LOVE circle, but, we did not. Maybe, we think that it is better for us to still stick as friend.
And, until now, surprisingly, we are still friends even though the feeling is there but I know where is my limit to this friendship. However, the first half day spending time with him makes me think 'Is he the one that I wanted all this while?'
When you enter into this situation, it means DANGER. You must think back and be rational. If I were about to follow my lust, I would have gone back to him and leave my man. Then, I asked myself back, 'Do you want this to happen in your life?' And, I answer 'Definitely, NO.'
I love my man so much. He is the one who stand in front of me when I need help, he is the one who stand by behind me when I almost fell down, he is the one who get me annoyed when I need explanation and he is my everything...everything I need in my life.
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Please... look back into your life. Ask yourself who has been the one that stay with you when anything happened? Appreciate that person. You can be mad or super duper angry to him but please, do cover him with love and show to him how much you love him.
I am writing this to my man. I do not know how to tell him and I do not know how to convince him that I do really love him. I hope someday, he will read this entry and understand me. I want him to remember all of the memories we shared each other. I want him to be in my heart and always be with my soul.
P/S: I Love You...
In my situation, I am in love with a man that can take a good care of me. He is the butter for my bread, honey for my tea, creamer for my coffee, a pants for my blouse as well. I like him the way he is. Even though he is not perfectly like what I wanted in a man, but he has proved to me that effort is all that we need. We may cannot change our attitude but with efforts, it has been the most beautiful way of showing love. In other way, he is my man.
Confused
Sometimes, we never really found a person we wanted to be our man. Sometimes there are certain attitude in our friend that we might want it to be inserted in our man. I do faced this kind of situation few times before. It's not that you want to change the route but it is a matter of arranging the choices you have in front of you.
Well, let's be honest. I met a guy who used to be a person that I admired. This happened during my study in university and at that point of time, I did not knew my man yet. We were started as friends and it became a feeling of likeness. We used to be very closed and almost stepped in into LOVE circle, but, we did not. Maybe, we think that it is better for us to still stick as friend.
And, until now, surprisingly, we are still friends even though the feeling is there but I know where is my limit to this friendship. However, the first half day spending time with him makes me think 'Is he the one that I wanted all this while?'
When you enter into this situation, it means DANGER. You must think back and be rational. If I were about to follow my lust, I would have gone back to him and leave my man. Then, I asked myself back, 'Do you want this to happen in your life?' And, I answer 'Definitely, NO.'
I love my man so much. He is the one who stand in front of me when I need help, he is the one who stand by behind me when I almost fell down, he is the one who get me annoyed when I need explanation and he is my everything...everything I need in my life.
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Please... look back into your life. Ask yourself who has been the one that stay with you when anything happened? Appreciate that person. You can be mad or super duper angry to him but please, do cover him with love and show to him how much you love him.
I am writing this to my man. I do not know how to tell him and I do not know how to convince him that I do really love him. I hope someday, he will read this entry and understand me. I want him to remember all of the memories we shared each other. I want him to be in my heart and always be with my soul.
P/S: I Love You...
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Here I am,sitting down the bench and updating the blog...
Quite busy these days...
Well...right now...I had my new hair cut..hehehe!
Bye!
Here I am,sitting down the bench and updating the blog...
Quite busy these days...
Well...right now...I had my new hair cut..hehehe!
Bye!
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